Monday, April 02, 2007
5:07 PM ;
umm... now is not the FAC take (II)........ im in no mood to do right now.. will do it in another day bahx.. let me tell you something which i've felt for the past few months..(
depressed now..)
umm.. what's troubling me now is that sometimes i would feel that i don hav a true friends in school, and i felt especially when im in depression mood.. nobody would really care about me, and i must so called take the initiative to talk to them, then they will talk to me.. if not they wouldn't really give a damn.. but even when they talk is only one in a million times..(for some) ok, don't sound so pathetic.. i do have a few of them really nice to me, but they have already their own close friends, and no matter how close we were, there's still a gap.. a gap that they wouldn't share their deep bottom troubles or secret with me..i don blame them or wat-so-ever.. but just feel that why didnt i realise their good and got to be friends with them earlier, so i can hav a close close friend?!
i've been stupid enough to be bubbly in front of them and act like some crazy woman whose never seen the world before.. but if i don't do that, they will not really respond.. ok, fine if you want to say me attention seeking.. however sometimes i feel that its so cold and i sort of wanna make them and me smile..
today recess when i was eating, i saw aziemah and aisah sitting with their own gang of friends.. it reminds me of the time during that fac period.. IT"S SO GREAT!! although we had some little little misunderstanding in the past, but we still unite together and joke and play together!! HOW I MISS THAT TIME!! and when i saw the state that i was in, i would feel sad... they had their own own friends to talk to, but me? haix....
hmmm..... hope these few days i wouldn't be in a depression mood..... then wouldn't think bout it le...
missing the old days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
