Friday, June 01, 2007
9:27 PM ;
hi.. im back again.. safe and sound to post here.. well, the chinese O is over!! (finally) and the O F&N practical is also over.. haha!! WOHOO!! during that period of time was so stress for me.. mon is O lvl chinese, and wed is O lvl practical.. haha! i was even thinking of how to do my dish while taking chinese... now relax a bit le.. YEA!! currently no F&N things to do.. no stress currently!! haha!!
but.. today was a up and down day for me.. well, friendship UPs and DOWNs..
today, asked them if they wanna go out this saturday, but they seemed to have no mood to go out.. so i felt quite sad too.. but nvm..
during recess time, we all sat on the bence with other class ppl and they started discussing the place that they wanted to go out.. some said K Box, some said AMK hub or whatever de lah( tht's not impt.).. and they actually left me alone, and don't take the initiative to talk to me( although i also didnt take intiative to join in the conversation..)! ok, i can bear with it, but the thing is they didnt even have the basic coutesy to ask me if i wanted to join them to go out..( althogh theyknew i don't like going K box, but they should've asked as a courtesy!)
what i felt at that time is that they do not treat me as their gang's ppl!( or they didnt even regrad me as one...) :( and when i ask them out they seemed listless, but when other ppl ask them out they are so energetic!! that's what i really can't stand.. and as expected from me, i went to the toilet and cried.. what hurts me more is that even a normal friend can sense that im not myself during recess, and my gang ppl cant even feel that!! :(
it really hurts me.. after school i went to talk to my best friend saw chiu.. she made me feel better... :)
THANKS SAW!!! <3s>the reason i asked them out is because i feel that we like didnt even go out once together this year, and since now we have some time to spare, we can go out.. but after this incident they made me lost confidence in going out with them and don't have the mood le.. 'cause i found out that it is me who mostly wanted to ask them out...
umm. but i do think that some part is my fault.. like i did not ask them earlier and stuffs lik that...
now i just want to take a rest and forget this, this terrible day.... :(
(PS: some ppl may not understand what im writing, but i write for the sake of venting my anger.. now i feel better! :) )
